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I've been wanting an outlet. A place to share my thoughts without someone knowing what I'm thinking. I think I might have found it.

For months now, I've been feeling alone. Everyone has someone, and it seems like I have an electrical fence around me warning people to stay far, far away. I try and try to do everything I can to please everyone else, but it seems like it never works. This past week, I've been lacking on sleep, and that has made me super emotional. I don't like feeling. Feeling makes you weak. When I feel something, and that makes me breakdown (physically and mentally), it makes me not want to ever feel that way again. Thus avoiding all confrontations. Sometimes I think I'd rather spend my life alone, so that I never know what it's like to truely be in love. Therefore I would avoid any chance of losing that love and having to be alone again.